a handful of promises
and him on my mind.
you'd think it'd get easier,
easier with time.
but each time he leaves,
the hurt feels so new.
my friends say 'cheer up',
but they have no clue..
            how it feels..
to see your boyfriend all suited up,
yeah he cleans up so well.
when i'll see him again,
only time can tell.
in Marine uniform,
he gets on that plane..
i keep a smile on my face,
and i stand in the rain.
i hold my tears back,                        
i can't let him see me cry.              
oh lord this is killing me,                
but i know i have to try.
no words can explain
what i feel when hes around.
when i lose all my senses,
hes my light, my touch, my sound.
my friends just dont get it..
they can't make it seem real.
the immense amount of hurt-
or even think how it feels...
if i could map it out,
if my feelings were drawn,
theyd know our time together,
is worth him being gone.
but even with a blueprint,
it just couldnt make it real.
no matter how hard people try,
they'll never know how it feels...